Quarter Life Crisis

I am in the middle of a quarter life crisis! I have been tellin people that i am going to be movin to Europe next year and the first question out of peoples mouths is why? Well i am going to tell you why, and tell you what is goin on in the middle of this crisis.

It all started a few weeks ago when i was analyzing my life determining what i am to do with it. Do you remember when you were younger in elementary school and you knew exactly what you wanted to do with your life. I remember the question that was asked by many, "what are you going to be when you grow up? My answer was to be a professional football player and to some a super hero! Those days were so easy! So full of energy! So what is the difference now? Well its obvious if i were to tell my friends and family i wanted to be a super hero or a pro. football player no one would take me seriously. they would laugh and tell me that out in the "real world" i couldnt get by with such a dream! that education and a good career is whats important. Dont get me wrong im not sayin they arent cause they are. The problem i have is tht these kids grow up and the thing that makes them happy to dream about is shattered by the reality of this world! These kids have to grow up and realize that their dream of being a super hero is just that a dream. Now alot of kids dont have problems with the transition and most seem to know what they want with life but what about kids like me who have no clue what to do with themselves. I am in the situation where i am surrounded by people but feelin singled out. i am among friends but feeling out of place. if anyone can relate awesome! but for those that dont get where i am comin from congrats! you know waht you want in life so go get em tiger! I want to live life the way i want to live it. Not how everyone says it should be lived or how the world says we should live it. I want to look back on my life in fifty years and be happy that i experienced what i did. I am sure everyone shares that same desire. I look at what i want to do in my life and one would say where is the time for family and career and though those things are important i will not ignore my desire to be adventurous. I want to see teh world and be free of the demands of reality for a time. i want to call my own shots and tell myself where i need to be and what to do. That is why i am going to move to Europe. i want to see Europe and learn of its history. I want to go see Japan and the secret places of asia, I want to be envied by people everywhere for my freedom. So i am leaving for a time to discover what the world has for me and if it by chance isnt for me then finding out what is will be an adventure in itself.

ps. im posting it without editing so sorry if i offend any english majors or somethin

I was Scured!

It has been a few days since i last posted an entry so to ALL my fans out there especially my sister Alyssa, it must have been heck to wait for this next entry! I was traveling the last two days back to Rexburg, ID to start another semester at BYU Idaho! WOOPDIDOO! not really but i have to endure it. Well i had some freaky experience before a came up here so check it out! on Wednesday i had a dream! Before i tell about the dream ill explain some things why this dream was so legit! I was lookin for a ride back up to Idaho with little success. Well i guess that is all i need to explain. Wednesday night i had a dream i was travelin in a blue surburban with a guy and his parents and we were in a accident which left all of us seriously injured or dead. I dont really know cause i woke up before i could see what had happened but it was a bad accident! So when i woke up i didnt think much of it. Well the very next day i got a call from this guy named Carl. He told me he had a spot available to go up to Provo, Utah. I told him fo sho! He proceeded to tell me where he lived and how to find his house for Saturday. As he was tellin me where his house was he mentioned that i would know it was the house cause there was a "surburban" in the driveway! I know right!? Well it gets better! I again just shrugged it off as nothin. Well Friday night i was hangin out one last time with my sisters and a couple of friends when they all decided to watch the movie Premonition. WORST MOVIE EVER! anyways after watchin the movie my mind was thinkin about the dream with the blue suburban and how Carl had mentioned a suburban in his directions, and after watchin that movie i started to question if it were possible to see the future in a dream! so i was starting to get a little uncomfortable! So i told my sisters and we all were like WEIRD! Well we decided to go to the house and see what color the suburban was! so we go street by street till we are in front of the house! GUESS WHAT COLOR THE SUBURBAN WAS!? YES! IT WAS BLUE!!! Freakin shart my pants right there! By this time my sisters are tellin me not to go and to wait till Monday to fly and i was like heck yeah! i dont want to die! it was freakin eerie! So we got back to the apartment and i called Carl just to make sure we weren't drivin the suburban. I called and asked him what kind of car we were takin and he told me that it was not the blue suburban and therefore my nerves were calmed and that was the end of that and now i am safe here in Rexburg and not dead! but crazy right?How would you have reacted!? It was pretty intense!